Current Mood:
Esctatic
First off, hello to Planet Atheme, enjoy my random nonsense 
Antidepressants are wonderful things. In general I classify them in to two sorts … the happy pills that just mask the problem, and the type that try to correct the problem. For the former I have little time, but I decided to try another swing at the latter group, see if they’ve improved since the last time I tried them.So around a month ago, I made a trip to my local friendly (and helpfully co-operative) GP to discuss medications. The result was a 5mg/day dose of escitalopram, an SSRI I had heard a lot of good things about. SSRI, that’s Selective Seratonin Reuptake Inhibitor, a drug to increase the level of nice neuro transmitters, or at least that’s how I understand it heh.Either way, a month of that stuff and it was time for a review. While they had had a slight effect on the apathy and general lack of energy I’d been feeling, it wasn’t quite what I was after, so the up the dose goes, 10mg/day.
All I can say is wow.
First off, the most noticeable effect.
I’m one of these people that likes my sleep. Fibromyalgia can cause a sleep rhythm disruption, such that if I don’t get 10-12 hours sleep, I wake up feeling really knackered. More often than not, I sleep longer … and since I go to bed rather late, it’s not uncommon for me to go to bed after 4am, get up late in the afternoon, and over the course of a few days let my sleep pattern invert.
So imagine my suprise when the first day after starting the new dose, I get up when the alarm goes off feeling perfectly awake. No going back to sleep, no ridiculously long sleeping.
Next day … get up -before- the alarm goes off. And the next day.
3 days on these tablets, and I’ve woken up sensibly each day. Infact, last night was around 8 hours sleep.
I am, of course, totally knackered due to being totally unaccustomed to relatively little sleep, but I’m sure that will pass over time.
Well that’s good.
It’s a little early to be sure, but my mood seems much less “miserable”, and I do seem to have more energy (even with being tired). Other subtle effects … I’ll have to get back to you on that heh.
Someone asked me if my IRC quit message is supposed to make sense. Since most people don’t get to see it that often, let me take a moment to detail and discuss it.
Quit: Absolute boredem can destroy entire family gatherings. Here is just killer l33tness. More nobodys organise parties. QUEEN RULES. Salute time utterly, valiantly, wasted. Xerox your zebra!!!!So let’s break that down.
- Absolute boredem can destroy entire family gatherings.
Anyone that’s ever been to a family event will know that a sure way to kill the event is to have everyone utterly bored.
Not just slightly bored, that can be recovered by a few quick engaging conversations, but totally bored out of their skulls.
- Here is just killer l33tness.
Well this quit message is rather cool, isn’t it 
- More nobodys organise parties.
This can be taken two ways. Firstly it is a suggestion that more nobodies should organise parties.
Secondly it is a statistical observation that this is already true.
- QUEEN RULES.
Gotta love Queen.
- Salute time utterly, valiantly, wasted.
Again, this can be taken two ways.  Firstly it’s a suggestion that we should honor the act of killing time in highly efficent ways and enjoyable ways.
Secondly it’s an admission that I spent far too much time writing this quit message
- Xerox your zebra!!!!
A little zen for you.
Perhaps it means we should try to preserve zebras?
Perhaps it’s a suggestion for a more entertaining christmas party?
Maybe it’s a just doesn’t mean anything?
Possibly, just possibly, there aren’t nearly enough words begining with X and Z
But no matter what, it sounds so cool
So why this collection of statements? Because I decided to create a set of sensible sentances such that their first letters spelt the alphabet.
Yes, I really was that bored.
I might post again later if I can get some work done to have something to post about lol.